~Unsolicited conversations about him and his future did not include me.
- I held on too long in hopes the man I love would love me; if he ain’t saying it after a year, he ain’t feeling it, nor is he gonna say it!
- I overlooked the contradictions between his words of reassurance and his actions that defied them.
- I allowed myself to be played the fool by going along with those contradictions, trusting it all still.
- I chose to ignore my intuitive gut, and brilliantly played the part of romantic fool for this play called Love for my friends and family.
Love requires sacrifices, always, but it does not require sacrificing one’s own Self-love and Self-respect. Ultimately, I walked away from the man I love because it was the healthier choice for me, my heart, and my self-respect. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it was the best decision.
Today, I continue working through the grief of this relationship loss, and toward finding unconditional forgiveness for us both. I believe(d) he was the one. I still love him, miss him and us. Eventually, hopefully, I will come to some peace within myself about it all, and reconcile those feelings against all that came to pass. In the meantime . . . . .