When we step fully into growth opportunities, the Universe never fails to offer us venues in which to deepen our self awareness, strengthen our spiritual practice and practice the use of our spiritual tools.
Surrender has been a big classroom for me of late. It seems that at every turn, I am faced with new opportunities to practice my patience of allowing, surrendering to the process and trusting that all will unfold in its highest and best good.
The latest classroom is my career position. I've been in the angst of job uncertainty before, and here I am again. BUT the Universe is placing me into this classroom verses my choosing to step into it by my own choosing. In these economic times, it is easy, thanks to the media, to freak about the "what ifs" of not having a steady reliable income flowing in. In my "day" job, I encounter clients who are in living real situations of uncertainty that becomes their reality. I trust that I am provided for, and have enjoyed security in that belief through my employment. But today, others' economic realities are threatening my own income security. I can't say I didn't expect it; I am psychic, after all. And I'm also very powerful in that I manifested it through my thoughts and words.
"Huh? Are you crazy? Why would you do that?" you ask. I've been unhappy in my position for awhile, so I began affirming that I have a part-time position that offers equal if not greater salary in an environment that emits a higher vibration, and allows me the freedom of creative inspiration and service.
I have no idea what will shake down over the next two or three months; who does and why would I? I move forward, one moment at a time, from a place of trust and surrender. Don't be mistaken, I will have the human moments of panic, frustration, exasperation, and fear now and again. But today, I'm in a stronger place to manage this latest leg of my journey, more so than I was three years ago when I unconsciously stepped into my spiritual classroom. I'm already living in a state of surrender around my mom's declining health. I'm simply being asked to step up my practice of living in the moment from a different angle.
I'm being asked to step up my affirmative prayer and belief in my creative power to manifest whatever goodness I desire moving forward. I'm being asked to fully practice complete and unwaivering belief and faith in my abundance and infinite supply by living in the state of full surrender to the knowing that the Universe already does, and will continue to provide for me.
This state of being is much more peaceful than choosing fear. From what place are you living your life today?
Love and Light,
Carolyn
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Fear: Its Effort towards Your Failure
This week, the Universe presented two amazing opportunities to me that will 1) challenge me to step up in my spiritual service to others and 2) challenge me to step up my own spiritual growth. At their appearance, I was very excited by these opportunities; however, as time moved towards the cross-point of "showing up" within these opportunities, I felt irritable, second-guessed my participation, and even questioned my spiritual guidance and knowing around their validity. The energetic feeling can be best described as "resistance" that feels thick, burdensome, and sluggish. In the days leading up to my involvement with these activities took great effort: doing dishes was a hassle, folding laundry, even eating took more energy than necessary. This slow-motion experience I call moving through the "sludge" of Ego Resistance.
At a workshop at Mile Hi Church, Maria Nimeth talked about "pushing through" the barrier of resistance when pursuing what you desire. This barrier is not unlike the one that surrounds the Earth; as astronauts travel from the Earth's atmosphere, there's a barrier that requires more energy and fire-power to break through into outer space. As we evolve in our lives, making changes to fulfill our purpose, we reach a similar energetic barrier that offers resistance; the key is recognizing the need for more energy and effort to forge ahead. The Human Ego sets up this energetic line of resistance that will do whatever it can to make it easy to simply give up, quit, or worse, convince ourselves that the benefit on the other side isn't worth breaking through to achieve.
Enters the scene: Fear. Fear appears in a variety of ways - including irritation, frustration, low/no energy, laziness, anxiety, nervousness, self-doubt, even unworthiness. These energies are Ego's defense mechanism against change, even if it's beneficial change; it's easier to stay in the "what it knows" zone.
These opportunities will propel me in my spiritual growth and in developing my spiritual business; and my human-self attempted to slow me down in the hopes of completely discouraging me. As a conscious being of Self, I can easily recognize these counterproductive energies when they show up, see through the veil of their delusion, and find inner strength to press on against the waves of resistance. No matter how many times I've encountered this barrier, I push through and in this case, the grass is always greener on the other side. Well, that is until there's another barrier to break through . . . . .
Carolyn
At a workshop at Mile Hi Church, Maria Nimeth talked about "pushing through" the barrier of resistance when pursuing what you desire. This barrier is not unlike the one that surrounds the Earth; as astronauts travel from the Earth's atmosphere, there's a barrier that requires more energy and fire-power to break through into outer space. As we evolve in our lives, making changes to fulfill our purpose, we reach a similar energetic barrier that offers resistance; the key is recognizing the need for more energy and effort to forge ahead. The Human Ego sets up this energetic line of resistance that will do whatever it can to make it easy to simply give up, quit, or worse, convince ourselves that the benefit on the other side isn't worth breaking through to achieve.
Enters the scene: Fear. Fear appears in a variety of ways - including irritation, frustration, low/no energy, laziness, anxiety, nervousness, self-doubt, even unworthiness. These energies are Ego's defense mechanism against change, even if it's beneficial change; it's easier to stay in the "what it knows" zone.
These opportunities will propel me in my spiritual growth and in developing my spiritual business; and my human-self attempted to slow me down in the hopes of completely discouraging me. As a conscious being of Self, I can easily recognize these counterproductive energies when they show up, see through the veil of their delusion, and find inner strength to press on against the waves of resistance. No matter how many times I've encountered this barrier, I push through and in this case, the grass is always greener on the other side. Well, that is until there's another barrier to break through . . . . .
Carolyn
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